The Awakened Way
What is it like to live an awakened life?
While the world is trying to solve its problems and everyone around you is engaged in the same, youíre not. While everybody around you is trying to figure it out, trying to arrive, trying to ďget there,Ē trying to be worthy, youíre not. While everyone thinks that awakening is a grand, noble, halo-enshrouded thing, for you itís not. While everybody is running from this life right now, in this moment, to try to get there, youíre not. Where everybody has an argument with somebody else, mostly everybody else, starting with themselves, you donít. Where everybody is so sure that happiness will come when something is different than it is now, you know that it wonít. When everybody else is looking to achieve the perfect state and hold on to it, youíre not.
When everybody around you has a whole host of ideas and beliefs about a whole variety of things, you donít. Everyone on the path is getting there; you havenít gotten anywhere. Everyone is climbing the mountain; youíre selling hiking boots and picks at the foot in the hope that if they climb it and come back down, they may be too exhausted to do it again. When everybody else is looking to the next book, to the next teacher, to the next guru to be told whatís real, to be given the secret key to an awakened life, youíre not. You donít have a key because thereís not a lock to put it in.
When youíre living what you are in an awakened way, being simply what youíve always been, youíre actually very simple. You basically sit around wondering what all the fuss is about.
When everyone is sitting around saying, ďI hope that happens to me,Ē you remember when you did that. You remember that you didnít find a solution to that. You remember that the whole idea that there was a problem created all of that.
When youíre being what you are, when youíre living the awakened life, thereís nobody to forgive, because thereís no resentment held, no matter what.
The truth of your being doesnít crave happiness; it couldnít actually care less. It doesnít crave love, not because you are so full of love, but because it just doesnít crave love. Itís very simple. It doesnít seek to be known, regarded highly, or understood. When youíre living what you are in an awakened way, thereís no ideal for you anymore. Youíve stepped off the entire cycle of suffering, of becoming; youíre not interested.
Itís a curious life you find yourself in. You find yourself . . . where you are. Not where I amówhere you are, where you really are, where we really are. Itís a curious place to be (especially in the beginning) not to be driven by anythingópleasure or displeasure, helping or hurting, loving or hating. The only thing that will move you (and I donít mean to be too poetic about this) is the same thing that moves a leaf hanging from a tree. Itís simply because the breeze blows that way. So you always know what to do. The breeze blows that way, and thatís the way you go. You donít ask questions anymore. You donít evaluate why the breeze is blowing that way because you know that you donít know why. And you know you canít know why. Thereís never been a leaf anywhere that knows why the wind blows that way on that day at that moment. That breeze changes the orientation of your life, moment to moment to moment, simply because thatís the way lifeís moving. And when youíre living in your awakened self, you have no argument with the way itís moving because it is the same as you are.
And you know that the breeze was always there, from the very beginning, and that it wasnít reserved for special people. If you didnít notice it at some point in your life, you know it was because you werenít listening, or because you thought you had to figure something out before you could listen, or because you thought there had to be some conclusion before you could just listen so deeply, so without agenda, so without hope of a better future that you would feel the movement.
Many of you know what Iím speaking of.
Truth never explains why itís moving that way at that moment. And if you ask, it wonít give any information. It would be like a leaf asking the wind, ďWhy are you moving that way right now?Ē The question doesnít make any sense to the wind.
But your argument with the way the truth would moveówhatever that way isóis no longer there for you. Youíre no longer arguing with it. Youíre no longer trying to figure it out. Mother Mary didnít figure it out. Buddha didnít figure it out. Ramana didnít figure it out. None of them figured it out. They just became That. Simple. Ordinary, in the same way a leaf is ordinary.
When youíre living in your awakened being and living in an awakened way, power on any level is not an issue for you. Itís not interesting. The power to control another human being is not interesting. Intellectual power is not interesting. The power to control yourself is not interesting. The power that people want to give you is not interesting to youónot because it shouldnít be; itís just not. What would you want to do with it? You see that thereís nothing you want to do with it.
You realize, in the truth of your being, that you are the totality itself, but you have no interest whatsoever in doing anything with that knowledge, with using that knowledge.
Finally, you realize that you really donít want to change anybody, not because you shouldnít want to change them, because you just donít. You might not want to be around everyone, but still you donít want to change them.
None of this is an idealóitís the end of ideals. None of this is holiness; itís the end of holiness. Itís the beginning of wholeness. None of this is something to achieve, because itís not achievable. Itís simply what is in the truth of your being. Itís just what is. You canít attain whatís naturally so. And nobody anywhere can ever tell you when or why, or to what degree youíll let go of untruth; you will let go when you let go, usually when nothing else works.
When youíre living in the awakened way, in the awakened being that you are, youíre alone, and youíre finally comfortable with it. Youíre alone, but youíre not lonely at all, because the only one who was ever supposed to meet you where you areóthe only one who ever could meet you where you are one hundred percentówas you. Nobody else could ever fully meet you where you areómaybe ninety percent, maybe ninety-five. Nobody can meet you fully but you. When you finally do, then you donít need anybody else to do it for you. Then youíre alone, more alone than you could ever imagine. And strangelyóvery strangelyóyou are more connected, more intimate, more at one with everything. More. And you would have never thought that those two could in any way be together: total aloneness and total oneness. You would have never guessed that thatís the way it would end up. But it does, and it always has.
And finally, when youíre just living in the awakened way that you really are, youíll never form an image again of what itís like. Even as itís happening, you wonít form an image because youíll know theyíre all images, dust. The way it was yesterday wonít be the way it is today.
© 2003 by Adyashanti. Awakened Living Intensive. Berkeley, CA. October 5, 2003
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